I have grappled with my sexuality for quite some time now and I am finally coming to a conclusion I should have come to a long time ago and in a way did: I have no definable sexuality. I came out as this in 10th grade jokingly but its true. Nothing fits other than that. I cannot be defined. I'm going to love who I love, or like who I like and I wont always be able to explain it. I'm not straight, but I'm not really gay either. I dont like the label of bisexual because its limiting and has bad stigma. Pansexual is also not a good fit because I dont know if I would be attracted to all genders, since I haven't encountered all of them yet. So I guess I will just have to learn to accept that I cannot be defined. I had a hard time when I liked this one guy after swearing off men for 3.5 years, and yeah I will admit he was much like the other MN guys from my past, not abusive, but still an asshole.
In conclusion, I am not saying I am straight or that I'm not gay. I am saying that I think I am ready to be open to loving a person regardless of their sex or gender.
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