Falling for Feminism

I occasionally lose my affections for feminism, with all the bullshit in the major and people trying to parade humanism around as feminism, I sometimes lose my passion. I hate censoring my opinions but I often feel that they may be too strong and people are turned off by how adament I am about them. But in the last month two things happened to me. I met someone who is possible more opinionated than me and I started really delving into the riot grrrl movement. I have had a passion for Kathleen Hanna from Bikini Kill/Le Tigre for a while, but she is really influencing me now. I feel like she is the closest established feminist to what would be my feminist theory. She's rather radical but she is also practical and emphasizes grrrl power over general "equality." She is my hero. Between Kathleen Hanna and this other person in my life, I am utterly motivated to do something with myself. I am planning on getting an electric guitar(maybe trading in my acoustic) and learning how to play. I started writing lyrics already, I want to perform. I want to allow myself to fall in love with feminism again!

Dabbling in Veganism

So for the past 7 days I have dabbled in veganism the best I can. I wanted to see what it was like and be better able to understand those people who choose to be vegan. I had been vegetarian be.fore but I never thought I could give up dairy. Giving up meat is not really that much of a problem. I might miss chicken and turkey but its not really all that difficult for me to live without. This whole week I was focused on dairy: does this have milk in it? type of thing. I have experienced symptoms of withdrawl from dairy though. My entire body aches and I've had a headache for almost the whole week. But overall, I feel a lot better. I do, however, get sugar cravings now. I have learned the difficulties of shopping and eating as well as coordinating life while being vegan, sure I have only gone a week but I am considering making this permanent. I like it. I will never give up my leather jacket though, plus its not like I bought it new, it died before I was born.

So I've Been Thinking...

I have grappled with my sexuality for quite some time now and I am finally coming to a conclusion I should have come to a long time ago and in a way did: I have no definable sexuality. I came out as this in 10th grade jokingly but its true. Nothing fits other than that. I cannot be defined. I'm going to love who I love, or like who I like and I wont always be able to explain it. I'm not straight, but I'm not really gay either. I dont like the label of bisexual because its limiting and has bad stigma. Pansexual is also not a good fit because I dont know if I would be attracted to all genders, since I haven't encountered all of them yet. So I guess I will just have to learn to accept that I cannot be defined. I had a hard time when I liked this one guy after swearing off men for 3.5 years, and yeah I will admit he was much like the other MN guys from my past, not abusive, but still an asshole.
In conclusion, I am not saying I am straight or that I'm not gay. I am saying that I think I am ready to be open to loving a person regardless of their sex or gender.